Especially in times of crisis, our inner life can go neglected. Here's a short essay from NAMI volunteer Lelia Davis that asks us to stay tuned in.
“Fine” is such a loaded word. Fine says, “I accept less.”
Fine says, “I'm ok with not listening to what I want. I accept that what I want is not as important as what you want, or what is expected of me. I'll continue doing this because then I don't have to consider what I really want.”
Many times, we must do things we don't choose, whether for work, family, our health, etc. Yet within these demands and obligations, we have the authority to choose. Do we choose the path of least resistance because it's familiar? Or do we take a risk and push the comforts of what we know? The answer lies within paying attention to what our bodies are telling us.
Many of us have been told we're too emotional, yet our emotions are exceptional sensors. They are tuned into our desires, which are really just our basic needs. Our need to feel heard, seen, and understood. Ignoring these needs is living in the “Fine.”
That catch in your throat, that flutter of your heart, that warmth that floods your entire body ... that's your emotion manifesting into something physical. Something that will get your attention. It's screaming, “I don't want to be fine! Pay attention to me! I want more!”
Would you ignore that pleading if it came from your child, your best friend, your partner? Then why ignore ourselves? Why accept less when the plea comes from within? If we believe we are worthy of more, just like that loved one we would never ignore, then we can truly listen to ourselves and take action.
We must believe that we are not only worthy of more, but that we're capable of more.
What's more difficult, enduring what's “fine” for eternity, or risking the temporary discomfort of finding our “more”?